The adrenalin as the ride takes you through loops, twists you, jerks you, catapults you, throws you in the air.. Blood rushed to my brain and I screamed so loud I got a sore throat. It was such an experience that it actually affected me psychlogically. After leaving the amusements, I closed my eyes and still felt like I was on a ride lol. Even had dreams. Proof that theme park rides can actually really affect you subconsciously. The adrenaline and feelings of euphoria are not just temporary; the high feeling is still present many moments later.
I spend most times feeling confused and out of place. Incomplete. I felt like I moved forward, but did I really move anywhere at all? I have never felt so many hands holding me back than I do now. Where are these hands from and how do I get rid of them? I cannot see them but I know that they are there. I feel them; their grip, their force and their movement. They are demanding to not let me go. Fucking hands.